Bargaining

I know the five stages of grief, nearly everyone does. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Grief, Depression, Acceptance.....I honestly didn't think I'd go through bargaining....I mean I don't believe in God....I wouldn't say I'm an atheist , I believe that there is a higher power but I don't believe in the Bible and its version of God and heaven and hell. So I figured if I don't believe in God then I would probably skip the bargaining phase, after all who would I bargain with?? Right? WRONG. Last night I found myself about to pray.....to God. That if my mom got a second opinion and turned out not to be ALS I would believe in him....silly